I'm currently in a "I'm going to cry or scream at any minute" type of mood.
Lately I've had to learn a hard lesson and one I'm still trying to figure out. If you know me at all or are familiar with Strengths my strengths include; activator, maximizer, competition, achiever, significance, arranger, focus, and relator (I've taken it twice). If you're unfamiliar with Strengths, check out the brief descriptions here.
The lessons I've had to learn is that most people don't think and act like I do and schools act different than businesses.
Both are hard for me to comprehend, but I'm able to deal and work with the first one. I've always been more of a direct and go go go type of person and being female I'm used to people not reacting to that the way I'd like them to sometimes. Throughout the years I've learned to adapt and learn ways to still get my point across or accomplish a lot while handling and managing other people's way of doing things. However, that doesn't mean I stop wondering why some people can't just put their feelings aside and just get shit done. I feel like this world would be so much more productive and successful if people weren't so damn sensitive sometimes. Recently I've found myself tilting my head in confusion to people when I don't understand how they're personalizing something or letting their heart come into it a little too much. Stop it people and just be a man about it. Yes, I went there.... However females aren't who I'm complaining about. I know some of the most emotional and feelings driven men. Drives me nuts when I have to check myself before talking to people wondering how they'll react to what I am about to say. Wonder if they ever think that about me? Why don't people just man up and talk to me since I adapt to them and timid down to their level.
The second lesson has been a very long battle and huge struggle for me over the last six months or so. Many of you know I'm in the home stretch of completing my MBA and that I also work in higher education on the staff side of it all. Let me just tell you that schools although they technically are businesses aren't run anywhere CLOSE to how real businesses are run. Things take FOREVER to get "approved" and there is this crazy hierarchy of how things are "decided." I can't tell you the disappointment, anxiety, frustrations, sadness, apathy and the rest of the emotional gamut I've felt for something I deemed an easy answer to a business problem. Apparently not. It's been since JUNE that I've been told this position is in front of "the cabinet" and so that means it's been thought about and discussed MUCH before that. **insert emotion here** I've always heard from my mom schools are different and nothing gets done in a timely manner and when you think it's done it'll probably do a 180, but I never had the privilege of experiencing it first hand until recently. It's so hard to come from a kick ass class in my MBA and read all these horrible case studies of companies failing because they did the exact things we're doing but not have any say or control over the matter. Why? Schools are different.
Until next time...
