Tis true.... I'm single!

After two and a half years, I am now single. Don't adjust your computer screen or restart the browser... you didn't read that wrong. Ryan and I are no longer an "item".

Many are asking what happened, but honestly it's not some horrible story of cheating or a knock down drag out fight. It just became clear to me it wasn't working out and there were things in the relationship I didn't see working for a marriage. Since we were obviously heading in that direction, these past few months I've been doing some serious analysis of where we were as a couple and where we were heading in our futures.

Many know Ryan is trying to go to law school in Fall 2011 and is in the middle of applying for those right now. While I was very excited for him at first when he brought up law school, I started to get less and less thrilled about it when the schools he was applying to were getting further and further out of San Diego. I originally jumped on board with the law school idea when he wanted to go to California Western School of Law which is in downtown San Diego. When that was deemed "not good enough" and he started to apply to places in DC, Chicago, Texas and North Carolina and expected me to pick up and move, I was less than stoked.

Many of you may also know, I'm one third done with my MBA program at PLNU and I have an incredible job (my dream job actually) which amazing co-workers and so why would I leave either one of those to be unemployed with no friends or family close? It wasn't something I was willing to do. His idea was to have me transfer to a school near his and that would be that. No thanks. 

There were many other circumstances that came into play with this decision and without getting into details, we just aren't a good marriage fit. As I told Ryan yesterday, "I can't marry you, but I can be friends with you". Nothing is more true. 

As for now, I'm stoked to get back to me and focus on my goals and dreams and have sleep overs and girl's night in at my apartment. Things I didn't have time for when I wasn't single. I want to explore San Diego, meet new people and just enjoy my 20's and not have to think about "when we're married" or "in 10 years will we still want this?" It's now, "what will I want in 10 years?" AWESOME!

While it's annoying to think I have to start dating again at 24 (I turn 24 on 12/12) and I thought I was done, I am surrounded by awesome co-workers who are reassuring. One hadn't even met her husband yet when she was 24 and a few aren't married. It's not the end of the world if I'm not married by 25. *deep breath*

If y'all have any questions, I'm happy to answer them. I'm not going to start crying when you ask about Ryan and I (PROMISE) and so don't be shy if you're curious.

There's the story!

Until next time...